[7/30] Sleep
Oh, it's 7:30am already. Time to get up.
I reach over to her side of the bed. It's cold. She left early today. And we’re still not speaking.
Alright. Get up.
Man, I’m tired. Work’s been hard and sleep's been worse. Is what I do even worth it?
Okay, I need to change and make some coffee. Then I wash up and change.
Water's hot and I've changed. I take my gooseneck kettle and start making swirls in the V60. Maybe I should quit. But who would want to hire me?No one really cares what I doI should just tell them off, they need me way more than....
Coffee's done.
I pour it into a flask, pack my bag and head to the office.
The morning was a blur of meetings, conversations and weekend plans. Some useful, most of them aren't. But they are all pointless.
Lunch time. Finally, a break.
Maybe a burger would make me feel better. But I should be good, I should be healthy. Salad it is then. life kinda sucks
I eat and head back to the office. everything here sucks, these files are all wrongthe client doesn't know what he's talking about, why is it so poorly managed?Why am I even on this project, this isn't even my job
It's 5:00pm. Home time.
What the hell did I even do today?Why is the train so damn full, I can't even get a seatWhy can't life just be better ? Why does work have to suck? Why are we even fighting?
I get home.
Make dinner. Take a shower. Read a book to calm down.
And sleep comes easily.
...
It's morning again. Time to do this shit over again.
But she's next to me. I guess she still loves me
Alright. Get up.
I know how to fix that model I saw yesterdaywait, if we move some stuff around, the project would go a lot better
At the office, This coffee is actually pretty goodI never noticed that how well the team is doing on this project and a large part is cause of my workOh that's cool, the tools I have made really have helped people
Because I had a salad yesterday, I can get burgers with my brother today. cool
My manager pulls me into a room for a "chat". He tells me that I have been doing good work and is important to the team.
Maybe what I do is useful after allMaybe I do matter and what I do is valuable
It is a good day after all
Funny how much difference one night of good sleep can make.
It doesn’t fix everything, but a lack of it sure makes everything suck more.